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PERFECTLY IMPERFECT 

In my early teens I had severe acne. I would get acne on my face, back and chest.  I have always had a terrible skin picking habit. I have noticeable scars from picking, There have been times where I let picking interfere with my social life such as avoiding the beach with friends, covering up at the gym as much as I can because people might see my scars. I have spent time covering up scars before work or certain events. I knew it was a problem when I started to get upset with how much time I spent picking at my skin. I sometimes find myself picking at my skin most when I am under pressure, stressed out, or anxious. During middle school and some of high school it was tough for me; having acne scars/sores when other people had little or  none. People would make fun of me and belittle me because of how I looked to them on the outside. I didn't understand how my mom would continuously tell me I’m beautiful but then someone else would turn around and say "It's an abomination" referring to my face. That only caused more stress, which led to more break outs and excessive skin picking, because to me it was like a sigh of relief.

For example: An alcoholic, being stressed out and turning to a bottle at the end of the day knowing they shouldn't and as bad as it is to do that is their escape instead of talking about the issue..that bottle is their sigh of relief.

By the end of junior year of HS my acne calmed down a lot and when that happened I became  interested in make up. I thought "Ok so my pimples are gone, how can i get rid of these scars" I figured if I covered my scars people would talk less about my appearance  but that only led to conversations of people questioning why i wear make up all of a sudden come senior year. I grew to love make up so much because it was like a real life filter for me, I started to imagine what i would look like without any scars it gave me different outlook on myself. Mid-October of 2016 God gave me an opportunity; to become whole. I found self love. I isolated myself, ached from being lonely, healed and accepted. I looked in the mirror and seen God. I took all that self doubt and lack of confidence and redirected my energy to things that required less of my anger and more of my presence.

I'm naturally a problem solver

Which resulted in me making handmade all natural products that will satisfy customers in every way to return confidence and sense of self.